i've been trying to reach you . its hard. " sorry i was busy ." is what u brushed me away with everytime . i cant get pissed. i can never been mad/ upset with someone i love dearly. but do i not deserve this tiny nminy bit of attention at all ? ruishan . i think u have a slight idea of my feelings towards you . i need you around . the fact that u had 'alex' on yr personal messgae makes me ponder alot too . i want to get to know u better . i just dont have the chance . i maybe able to be irritating enough to send u 2/3 messages without receiving any reply at all , my messages to you via friendster . needless to say . ignored . too busy again ya ? i am constantly taking out my phone to check if there are any messages . no . no nothing . nothing at all . no response. no response at all . do you know how much i need you ? i have been keeping this blog for you cause i wanna let you know how i feel. not to let myself end up with disappointment . i might be able to send you the url to this blog. but would you even bother to click on it and read the past entries? would you even bother considering kaixuan as a contender to be yr boy friend ? i care alot . sometimes to much for you to think that i m a pest. sorry if thats the case. but i care dudette. i care . i care too mcuh for my own good sometimes.


consider pls.